What do i do??

I’m at a lost of words. Nothing to say. Not knowing what to do. I’m sorry. Please forgive me.

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Just trying to be a nice guy

I don’t know why i get myself into these situations. All i want to do is be a nice guy…thats all…then it all becomse complicated and messy…Annoying…

Quantom of Solace

not as good as its hyped up to be. Too many loose ends in the plot and open endedness. Advise is to watch casino royale before watching, as a refresher.

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Match Point

Watched this movie last night, and it had an interesting twist to it. Interesting association with tennis matches and life. Pretty interesting if you have the time. Pretty well shot movie by woody allen

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No more Superman

I have to stop being superman, trying to save everybody just don’t work. Too complicated and gets too troublesome. So i shall now stop. Superman, “retires”

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Is it time to forgive and forget??

is it time to?? i don’t know. A family member, maybe, but what if its something which shakes your beliefs, something which affects you that you can’t let down?? is it time to forgive??

Melvin, you tell me…

Roller coaster of a night

so tonight has really been a roller coaster of a night. From nearly losing a friend, to laughing and joking about being beaten to the hole in one. But i guess thats just the way it is no? The unpredictability of life. Some feel lost, some have a direction so strong, that nothing will detract them, some have ups, some have downs. Some come out stronger, some wither way into a hole….but thats the way the cookie crumbles…

Thanks Life…for when the shit hits the fan, you’ve just gotta smell the roses…

The Pursuit of Happyness

What constitutes happiness? What makes somebody happy? Money? Car? House? Family? or just purely anything…Happiness is what everybody yearns and searches for. But what constitutes it?? happiness differs from person to person.

4 weeks, a month, time gone by. And it has finally come full circle. Its time for the end of the cycle. Time to embark maybe on a brand new cycle. 2 years of studies, 2 summers of coming back to visit. As i once again move into the nostalgia of heading back to school. Travelling back to the other end of the world, a feeling of sadness and reflection. Somehow it always happens. Always taking time to just think of the month gone by. Visiting, catching up, hanging out, and now its finally come to and end. And somehow my music player shares my sentiments. The graceful sound of marie digby doing the cover of nelly furtado. And I guess the question is really why do all good things come to an end.

But each time i sit here feeling like this, somehow words aren’t required. Just stare and think. The feeling of leaving will come…this time, possibly a longer time away. But oh well, a life chosen, free-spirited, one to roam the world and explore, fully living up to the meaning of my name.

Alright Singapore, thanks for the memories, time to drift onto the abyss…take care and i’ll see you in a couple…

Realize

So the first 2 weeks of my stop back in Singapore have been one of hectic appointments as well as just catching up with various people. But i chose to name this entry as “realize” because, i think i have yet to do that, or worse still, don’t know how to.

There are many things that I may/may not realize. Be it things to do, words to write, emotions to show, everyday, people always “realize” something..So, i’ve been thinking, have I “realized” yet…have i realized what i want to do in life, what direction, what goals?? Or must I be like Melvin, shave my head and lead the path of righteousness. Heading to the high mountains in isolation to “realize” what he truly belongs for.

So as I sit here and listen to the Colbie Caillat song. How it says to take time to Realize. Maybe thats what i’m doing, taking my time. Do i envy what other people have that I don’t. Be it in terms of belongings, lifestyle, money…i’m not sure what to do. Awkward situations i have seen a couple. But finding out what to do when i’m in them. I have yet to realize. Anger, Jealousy, Lust, Envy, I don’t even know where I’m going with this post. But isn’t it just funny that in order to get something off your chest, you actually have to write about it on an electronic virtual world, meant to be archived in the deep deaths of the WWW..Maybe, because certain things are personal, sensitive, private…

Maybe thats what diaries are all about. A private way of realizing and reflecting on things which you don’t know what to do about..So what do i do?

I’ve yet to realize….

Its been 2 years.

So school has finally ended, 2 years gone by..whizzing by in a flash. And although initially i hated going to this tiny campus, after 2 years and looking back, it was an experience well worth it. As many other posts all have gone out, this is truly another turning chapter in my life. From a campus of 4000, i now move on to a campus ten times bigger. Culture shock anyone??

But oh well, here is a slide show of how life has been. What i’ve done..look back and just enjoy the show